Have you ever wondered why you feel compelled to convince others how you feel about your autistic or special-needs child? Shouldn’t you just be allowed to FEEL, THINK, AND ACT? Maybe I can shed light on some of those feelings because I have lived through those tough and indescribable moments-in-time that feel never-ending, days that feel like years, thoughts that tend to shame us, and instinctual actions we took that were truly innocent and inherent.
This blog is not written or intended to bash parents or caregivers that raise special-needs children, but, rather, to give much needed permission for parents to come out of a hidden place and openly and candidly talk about the seemingly unnatural or unaccepted thoughts that you may not like your child and dislike a majority of what your child represents or how your family or relationships changed because of your special-needs child.
For those of you who are married or in a committed relationship, you undoubtedly will agree with me that it is difficult and challenging for two people to forge a strong relationship between one another – given a typical family environment. Both partners need to demonstrate the fortitude of early parenting skills and be secure with their attachment style so they can fully nurture their own creation. It is often challenging to even know where to begin or how to work together in an effective partnership.
When a mom or dad decides to become a parent and raise a child, they knowingly commit to give-up some freedom and some autonomy for the purpose of bringing a new life into the world. They are generally more than happy to sacrifice themselves to benefit their child. Part of that sacrifice comes with the expectation that as a baby, the child will need and take resources from the parents, and as the child matures into adulthood, that need lessens and lessens until the child is a self-sufficient adult.
But what happens now that the child doesn’t develop typically? What happens when the child does not or can not become independent? What happens to parents of special-needs children when their willing sacrifices are never-ending and never-minimizing?
Parenting a child with special-needs requires parents to transform the unimaginable into reality; blurred and unmet hopes, dreams, and expectations into rediscovered and yet-to-be disccovered futures.
Sometimes, we just want to pretend that the life we have been dealt is just a bad dream that we no longer have to take from and live on a daily basis. Simply, it is typical for special-needs parents, to feel angry, jealous or envious of the typical life that other parents and families around us are living. What would it be like to live the blissful and happy experience of raising a typical child? Is that expectation and hope reachable? Can we ever go back in time and experience the contentment of being happy-go-lucky?
The answers lie when we transform ourselves from feeling the need to convince to feeling the tranquility of acceptance. How do we stop feeling compelled to convince others that our life isn’t too “special” and accept that our life is typical, yet different.
The meaning of convince is to move by argument or evidence to belief, agreement, consent, or a course of action or persuade or cajole. I often ask myself if it is necessarily to try and persuade our family and dear friends to accept and know how hard our everyday lives are, or is it enough to know that for ourselves, and to transition from the mode of convincing others by arguing and getting upset, to just accepting our lot regardless of how others feel or how our lives compare to others around us.
The meaning of acceptance is the act of receiving something offered, the act of assenting or believing. To truly accept that we do not and will not live a “typical” life is life-chainging. When we can look at another family whose children are speaking clearly, playing appropriately, potty-trained or can make eye contact without any issues, we will have reached the magical plateau and place of acceptance. For me, that place seems like the place Dorothy visited in the Wizard of Oz – a fantastical place of joy, happiness and tranquility. It may not be a place that is easy to travel to, a place where we can use our GPS to drive, or a place that we can know when we first arrive, but it is a place that is definitely attainable and reachable.
I have strived for the past 15 years to find acceptance of my new identity: being the mother of a child with a developmental disability. I’ve grown tired of trying to shield myself and my loved-ones from the endless and tiring plight of the therapies, doctor visits, hospitals, IEP meetings, teachers, etc. I, like you, have travelled through an unexpected journey that is inescapable – and no one can tell us otherwise. We are traveling along an untrammeled path – unique to each of us and our child. Have we reached our destiny? NO! We can work hard and be open to traveling different roads and paths to Discovery our true Destiny.
We will always endure that burden of caring for our special-needs child. And yes, it is a burden regardless how difficult it is to acknowledge that as a mom and parent. The trials and tribulations we have experience have made us wiser and stronger. We are resilient above all others, and are stronger than we ever expected. Our relationships, marriages and families do not need to crumble and succumb to the stress and challenges. We are strong! Strong to stay committed. Strong to be the parent of a child with special-needs. We just have to clear away the cobwebs and dust ourselves off. We are stronger than we thought, and so are our children with special needs and their typical siblings. After all, we created our children and they have our DNA. We are all blessed differently. However, we all have one gift that we often don’t even realize we have. Its called ACCEPTANCE.
If you are the mom, dad, sibling or family member of a child with special-needs, autism, a developmental disability or a chronic medical condition, Eric and Erica from Discovering Destinies, Inc. are ready and able to help you deal with the stress, cope with the trauma or just listen to your frustrations. Erica is a Florida Registered Marriage and Family Therapist Intern License # IMT2785 and the mother of a child with a developmental disability and chronic medical condition. Eric is a Florida licensed attorney, Florida Supreme Court Certified Family Law Mediator, and a Life/Relationship/Special-Needs Coach.
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